Time for a Ramble...

So I thought it was about time for a ramble...
My goodness, where to start... God is good. (that is always a good place to start) I am seeing more and more how important He is, and how it does take that little "yes" when the opportunity comes to do what I'm doing or go spend time with Him. I'm not going to lie--I've not been very good at it since I came home--but I'm learning. Learning to say those little yes's of skipping out on the movie or getting off facebook to really spend time at the feet of Jesus, and digging into the word. It is just like everyone always said, I just never quite understood, as seasons change so your relationship and time changes as well--when I first came home I wanted to still spend my 6 hours in the prayer room, but I have realized that I need to actually see what this new season is, and what my plan should be based of that and not what it once was.

yup, I said this was going to be a ramble... :D I was sitting outside earlier and it is just beautiful--so warm and sunny. I think I may have even managed to get a slight burn! (but we'll see for sure tomorrow) But I think I'm starting to loose my Nightwatch-paleness, or at least that is the goal!
And as I was sitting in the sun reading, I realized that I love my dreads alot, and I they feel really cool in the sun--'cause with normal hair you get hot and it gets sweaty and stringy, but with dreads they keep cool, and when I wore them down they protected by shoulders from the heat of the sun! No wonder more people in CA have dreads! They are just so happy, I'm really glad I got them...

I am just struck by the goodness and reality of God. He is so good. It is so easy to start living life and forget what it's all about. Suddenly I start worrying about where my job will be and if anyone in Indiana will really hire someone with dreadlocks... I start analyzing life and get so focused on the here and now, that I forget about the Reality that I was living for. In a moment I can slip away, and live off in my own little world created of dirt and plans.... but something or someone always comes along to remind me of REALITY.
Then just like the song, glory eclipses afflictions and worry of the present... I realize who He is... and how when I learn to invite Him into my life I win. If all I do today or tomorrow is cry: "Jesus, I love you, HELP!" Then I have won, when I take those little things He gives me to make me smile and look up to Him and say, "Thank you" it moves His heart... Man, think about it. Everything I do is in the sight of God, and when I look up and acknowledge Him... it stirs His heart with pleasure... and how silly to try and "grin and bear it" when He is right there, waiting for me to ask His help... He is so good. He has made life such a blessing for all of us to enjoy and to find Him through it... yet, I am caught up in so many things of this life, trying and striving to earn what has been given me...

Oh I love it, God is so cool. And frustrating sometimes... He like the weak ways, He likes dependance and likes things that seem foolish. Which is really good after all, for I am weak, I am totally a dependent and unable to do anything on my own, and I can be pretty foolish...
But yet, sometimes it offends me when I ask God, "How can I love you today? How can I follow you closer today?" and the answer is something little--like asking for help or not doing a simple thing like waste too much time reading pointless fiction (that is not a jab, but one of my weaknesses)... but I am committing myself and asking for GRACE.
But He is so good, He is so faithful.
I am endeavoring to find out who He is... I was at Living Waters last week and the word that was shared was about having faith--and misplaced faith. Faith comes from knowing the One who is faithful, so to grow in faith one must grow in the knowledge of the One who promised--grow in the knowledge of God. It is crazy and awesome... YeAh! God is good. Time to set my face and seek out the only One who is worth living for! He is so good! His leadership is perfect! And His love and mercy unfailing!