AHH! Now I'm going to listen to some Audra Lynn! And then figure out what to do for the rest of the evening... I've been cleaning and going through stuff pretty much all day... so hopefully when I move in the fall it will be easier! (at least that is the plan) I've been really getting into Hosea lately and it is really awesome. I have started using some of my comentaries and it is so awesome to have an outline/timeline to help explain some thing... it is really awesome.
I'm not sure if you notice or not... but I'm slightly out of it... I took like an hour nap before dinner and am a strange mixture of awake, sleepy, and something else that I am at a loss for word for...
And this Audra Lynn set is just what I need to hear--about God providing and being faithful to satisfy my needs. I keep hearing the theme over and over everywhere about God drawing His loved ones into the wilderness for a season to encounter Him and fall in deeper love for Him. And I have more than a good guess that that is where I am these days. It is hard sometimes, but I know that the end will be worth it... indeed, I will come up from the wilderness leaning on my Beloved (song of songs 8:5)... and He has drawn me into the wilderness so that I will call Him "Ishi" --My Husband-- and no longer "Balli" --My master (Hosea 2:14,16). Yup, that has been the most recent part of my journey, and each day He is teaching me more and more about how to live and love, and be more like Him. I am starting to like the journey, it is not love yet, but I pray that that day will come. I want to be one like the martyrs and other throughout history that have been so fixed upon eternity and the Hope of Jesus Christ and His 2ed return that the things of this life loose but of their gravity and urgency, but other things are seen as they really are.
Like the constant worry about what people will think and what I will wear today fades, and I start wondering how I can love God and people better... How can I start living my life for eternity? How can I start living for another age... and what is really important in the grant scale of things?
Stuff gets so much less important, and people, relationships, and how I spend my time because so much more important, suddenly it is not okay to Not talk about Jesus or what He has done in my life... For time here really is short, I mean, 6 months went by in a *SNAP* of the fingers, and in just a little while years and years will have gone by. I want to be one who loves God with my life... All by the grace of God. As I get older, I find more and more that I can do nothing without the help of my wonderful Savior or the Grace He so liberally gives if I will but ask...
| But, beloved, do not forget this one thing, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. |
| The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance. |
| But the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night, in which the heavens will pass away with a great noise, and the elements will melt with fervent heat; both the earth and the works that are in it will be burned up. |
| Therefore, since all these things will be dissolved, what manner of persons ought you to be in holy conduct and godliness, |
| Therefore, beloved, looking forward to these things, be diligent to be found by Him in peace, without spot and blameless; |
The question that I am always left with is-- considering all you have seen and learned... How then should I live? What should my life look like considering the grand perspective? What is the best use of this momentary life?
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