A note

I have a little time before my last class of the day, and I thought I would come post here! Wednesdays are my early days... My first class is at 3:30pm (which really means I have to leave the apartment like 3ish) but it is really good. This class is talking about support raising and the Biblical stance on it... and it is pretty awesome.
Lately God has been teaching me to trust and lean only upon Him... I never realized just how much I depend on things other than God--that is-- until God points them out and is like.. "you said that you wanted to trust in me alone... so this has got to go."
This lesson is a real adventure-- yesterday I realized just how much of my identity I have drawn from working and holding a job. I did not figure this out till my brain stumbled across the fact that when I come home in April, I will have not held a job FOR HALF A YEAR! Crazy...
I've also discovered the things that I run to for comfort outside of God like eating to eat, and drinking massive amounts of coffee when I don't really want it.

I realized how my nature is-- how I love to be independent and be able to do everything all by my self.  But in His love and mercy, God has gently shown me the places that I have slipped away from Him and invites me to trust Him on a new level.
It has been scary trusting in God, and in fact, it still is. I am waiting upon Him to guide my life and to fulfill the desires of my heart. I have always been a bit uncomfortable with Psalm 37--

Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass.
He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.
Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; do not rest because of his who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass. (verses 4-7)

So each day is an adventure trusting God for more and more of my life. He is so awesome, He gives me the grace to trust Him a little bit more in each situation and each difficulty in life. He waits while I freak out and then speaks so quietly and gently to my heart, showing me how He is teaching me and assuring me once again of Him faithfulness that will never fail me...
Thank you God for being a God who loves the process... who walks with me hand in hand through the hard thing in life and gives me the grace and faith I need to make it through another day. Thank you.

On a light note... I've been considering getting dreads (aka dreadlocks)-- I know, it sounds so hardcore.. ;)  I've seen some people have these little dreads and they are quite awesome. I've been researching them and they are actually pretty easy to care for and keep clean... but I'm going to wait till I can get the kit that has all the direction and all the stuff you'll need. but Yeah! That's one of the silly awesome thing I'm thinking about...

I love you my lovely People!
PRAYERS!