Another day has begun, I'm sitting in the Cafe after breakfast, and my thoughts have turned to behold the deep questions of life-- what will be and why God works the way He does.
I've been thinking about where I am right now... I miss people from home and part of me wishes to be back there to where I left off... at the same time I am filled with excited expectation (filled with not a little fear and trembling) of what will be. I have no real idea of where God is going to take me-- for it could be Anywhere.
So this all sits together in a very interesting combination... I'm missing the past, feeling unsure about what will be, and trying to make it through the here and now.
God, there is nothing else I can do but trust you and set me heart to accept whatever you bring my way.
But I need grace God, lots of Grace...
His leadership is perfect. Most of the time I don't understand what He is doing or why, but I will choose this day to trust Him with my life and my heart. I will choose this day to life right now, and take each situation as it comes. Alright God, I'm ready to move at your pace and will stop trying to wander back where I was or run ahead to what could be-- I'll enjoy the time I have with your right now as we walk hand and hand down the road of life.
Hannah,
ReplyDeleteI love reading your blogs and seeing what God is doing in your life. It surprises me at times that what I read is what I am going through and this would be one of them. I have been longing to go back to the camp I worked at this past summer and be with everyone again and then there is being here at school and trying to do what God wants me to do but not knowing what that is any more and then there is my future, where I have not a clue where He is going to take me. I feel that He is leading me closer to where I long to be and do and that He is saying yes it's time but then fear shows up and I stop in the midst of my actions and just look and see what is going on (as if everything around me has just stopped and time is not moving)...
That has been happening a lot lately where God has just placed it on me to look back and see what has become of me and who I used to be. I don't recognize the person that I was last year and that's an awaome thing. God's been speaking to me so much and I have finally learned to listen to Him and He is showing me so much that I never knew and answering questions of why some things have happened that I did not understand at the time they happened but now I do... Aww, I could talk about what's going on so much and have started a blog on what He has been showiong me and telling me... At times the lessons are hard to learn and what He says I don't want to hear but it's too hard to ignore and I wouldn't want to ignore Him anymore since I did that all of last year and now this year I am truly living for Him!!!
Praying for you always,
Hayley Terrell