Home, Christmas and Coffee

It is Christmas morning and my family is all together, huddled around the two newest members... Joshua and Noah Stein! They were 8 weeks old yesterday, and I have spent much time rocking, holding and walking them around. These two boys are just the littles wonders I have seen... such little people, who will grow up and have lives of their own, but for now they cry and laugh and are totally dependent.

God has been awakening love for my two little nephews, and that in it self is a very special thing. Not to long ago I was not very fond of children let alone babies. But they smile and me and my heart melts, even when they are crying my heart goes out.... I'm looking forward to watching these little ones grow and pour into their lives. I will gladly embrace the title of, "Aunt Hannah" even though I'm sure when they start talking will be changed to something else. God thank you for these beautiful boys!
(it's great too! The pacing I learned from the prayer room sure comes in handy when calming a crying boy!)

Each day I'm realizing how different I have become and how I have no idea what life will hold. But again and again I am reminded that God is leading me and He is taking care.
Yes, the passing of one season to another is very painful and scary, but I know the One who made it all and who has never left me and never will. Through all the changes I am still holding onto Hope and the vision of what will be. It is like the song says, "I know the end of the story, I come up from the wilderness leaning on my Beloved." That is what keeps me going.

I am so glad for another season at IHOP, and that the presence of God has never left me. I am learning to be content with His as my all and all.  I see all the growing to be done and I am excited for the journey...
and everything I find to say sounds like a trite saying, but let me assure you and me... that God is working in my life and He is good.

So have a Merry Christmas, and know that you have my love and the Unfailing Love of the Father!
<3

Crazy! maybe it's the coffee talking....

Hey! So this is crazy two posts in one day! but I got tired of cleaning and am taking a break.
Well, news for ya'll-- I'm starting to like Christmas, which if you know now me is totally a God thing... and yeah, I'm not drinking as much coffee anymore, but that is mainly because I've packed it all up for now...
But Yeah. I've got my clothes all set out for the next few days and most everything all packed up!
I'm not sure how much I will post while I am home, but will try.... but then I wonder what the point is, for most of the people who have been reading my blog are ones that I have been around while out here, like my family, but who knows. I really like having a blog, for it's somewhere to get thoughts out, and is a whole lot easier to keep in contact with people while I'm not in the same place!
Who knows, maybe I'll go a'traviling and keep the blog going.. that would be really fun!
Anyway, my Martha is calling to me and then I should get really and get BeaUtiFuL!
Heehehee....
God bless you all!!
LOVe

Here I am

Here I am!
I cannot believe FINT is almost over! But that God, He is making the most of the time left, and it's not like He's leaving me till I come back to KC... ;) Which I'm really thankful for!
Well, today I am cleaning and finishing the very last of my packing, then we have a banquet tonight! (I'm pretty excited! I look like a bum right now, but I'll get all pretty-fied later! and I really will... I bought heels and everything!)
So YeAh! God is good and  time has flown. I'm enjoying every moment here with my lovely people here, and looking forward to coming home and seeing all you lovely people!
I just want to give God a shout-out, for He is good and He provides for all the needs of His people. He has heard my prayers and my cries and He is not silent.
He is good and He is faithful, and I am so THNAKFUL! He has been telling me about Himself, His beautiful nature--and for the first time ever-- my heart has been learning about Him and not just my head!
God you are AWESOME!
People I'm excited to see you!
LOVE TO YOU ALL!

Real quick and Starbucks rocks...

Hey! Another quick update! SOOooooo I have 4 1/2 days left here in KC and then back home! It's so crazy that time has gone by so fast, I feel like I have known everyone here for ages, yet am still getting to know them! All of my roommates and I are going on to track 2 so that will be loads of fun, although we don't know if we will be placed in the same apartment next track--what can I say but God is good, and if we are with new people, we will learn how to handle new things!
I'm just about to go and have group pictures taken with all of our track, and then off to the Prayer Room! Tomorrow we are having a Christmas party at our apartment, and wishing fair-well to those who are leaving early... it's just crazy that things are winding down, yet God is teaching so me so much!
I'm treasuring my hours in the prayer room and it's just so crazy. Part of my mind feel like I'm leaving tomorrow and is ready to, and the other part of my mind feel like I am going to be here forever and wishes never to leave...
I'm so thankful for the God that is always with me, the One who is coming home with me and will always be with me! I'm so excited about having life with God, no matter where I go or what happens, He will always be here, holding my hand and speaking into my life. I am so blessed to have this time sit and fellowship with God and not be working or going to school.
There is just so much to catch up on when I get home...
I love you all and am lifting you up in prayer!
God bless you!

In the coffee shop

Well here I am again, sitting in Higher Grounds and thinking of the time lift here at IHOP. About a week from now I will be on my way home, and then back again for Track 2!

It's so crazy when things start to come to an end... today I had my last E-12 group, which was my first last class, and then another last class tonight in Excellencies of Christ. It's so weird, the feeling is like that one when you realized that you are done with High School or you are done with another year of college, that feeling of "Where did all the time go?" and just think.... six months from NOW, I will be almost 20 years old. Time is just such a crazy thing.... I'm glad we have it for as the saying goes, "it keeps everything for happening at once," but I feel like the older I am getting the less and less time there is between things happening.

I mean, wow, I've been out of school for almost two years, most of my friend are in college, my sister has kids and WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE? It seems like yesterday I was still playing in the woods, getting ready with my friends for prom, graduation, moving out, getting my first job on my own, driving here, three months, and total change in my life... and who knows what next?
I feel like I'm going to blink one day and I will have kids with kids and it's just CRAzY!

I've have been realizing how short life is, and that life really is just a vapor, just a moment on the grand view of everything. But He cares how we spend it.... and He is here with each one of us right now. He cares about every little thing in our lives. That just blows my mind away... He is so big and we are so small, yet He counts us worthy of love and time. He is just so awesome. These seem like just normal things, but man, when you stop to really think about it-- my mind cannot ever wrap itself around such a "normal" thing...

Oh my goodness, God is so good. I'm so glad He is here with me, holding my hand, never to leave me. I'm just so thankful, I've spent many years trying to be all that I need. I remember how scary life is when you are looking to yourself to fill all your needs and take care of you. God has been working on me as I have been here, that He really don't have it all under control and if I just follow His lead, He will take care of me. And His care is So much better. There is such freedom in not being "in control," not that I'm perfect of anything. There are still many times throughout the day when I want to take the lead, but He is faithful to always pull be back to Himself, and pick me up after I fall...


Thank you so much God! For loving me and being so faithful to us All!
I'm looking forward to seeing you all so SOON!!! Know that I am praying for you!
God bless you all!
LOVE!!!

few days left and I had a lot of coffee...

I have once again not written in a while, but things have really spead up since my last post. It's only a few days left of Track one of Fire in the Night. And it is ligit now, I'm coming back on Jan. 5th for Track two!
Today is my Sabbath, and I went with my apartment to see the Voage of the Dawn Treader! Which happen to be one of the best Narnia books... and they did a pretty decent job on it! (Not that I would not have done some things differently, but better than the first two)

And yes, things with God have picked up two, not a day goes by where He does not show me a new facet of His heart or something that needs some work in my heart... but He is good, and if there is one thing that I have learned from this entire three months that will stick with me for the rest of my life it is this-- His leadership is perfect. I know I talked about that in my last post, but I'm realizing it's truth.
Each day is a new adventure of leaning more and more on Him, I'm not all the way there yet, but He is faithful and truth. He will see this work completed.

I'll be sad to leave the prayer room and the awesome community here, but I am so Happy to be going home for a bit! Time to see friends and family and catch up on all that God has been doing.
Truthfully, I'll also be glad to come Back to IHOP for anther three months....
I have been doing so much growing here, and so much changing as I am understanding the True love of the Father, and how He made me to be the real me... that I need some time to really be established.
I have heard people compare it to concrete-- Track one lays the foundation, breaks down the walls and turns you into wet cement. Then in Track two you harden and start living out the changes in your life.
In Track two I will get to work with Hope City-- which is a inner city ministry, CEC-- the care of young kids, and Samuel Company-- which is working with other kids, there are some of the different branches of IHOP's ministry.

Well, I had better start getting things together to pack up... and I look forward to seeing your faces and giving you all! (Ya'll thanks to Aly!)
I love you all!
Blessings!

Two weeks left and God is good

I have roughly two weeks left here in Track one of Fire In The Night. Today I realized just how beautiful it is to have this time set aside from normal life to really seek the face of this God who is worthy of Everything.
It is Sunday and I spent several hours in good conversation with two other interns, and then went to the prayer room. As I sat there listening to worship and resting in the presence of God, I had a revelation. This revelation was more of a summation of many of the things I have learned in the this time here at IHOP. I realized that I don't want to spend a life not caring, or caring about getting everything perfect and it finally clicked in my heart-- God is worthy of it all. He is worthy my whole life. Even if other people give me weird looks and say, "you spent 3 months sitting in a room for 6 hours a night talking to and worshiping a God that you cannot see? are you crazy? Why don't you actually DO something??"
I'm getting to the place where I am okay with having this response, in fact, I'm Excited that I get to do this! In Fact! I'll probably do it for another 3 months!!
Another things I realized-- how fearful I have been in life, I have been afraid to make on wrong move-- no, I cannot say that or do that I could hurt someone's feelings and then they won't like me anymore... what if I make the wrong choice in life and then God gets angry with me... what if, what if.
but the truth of the matter is this:

I love God, God Loves Me, therefore I am successful.

That is a quote I have heard often here at IHOP, but I have never really understood it... but I'm starting to.

God is with me. Who shall I fear? God loves me, what love should I be afraid of losing? God will Always be with me, why should I fear being abandoned? God will provide for me, why should I worry? God is leading me and His leadership in Perfect.
That's not just a song, it is Truth. Why should I fret and worry for tomorrow?
Look at the Birds-- Carefree in the Care of God.
That is my goal in life. I'm going to start taking God at His word and stepping out on faith. I don't always feel His with me, but He promised so I will take that promise and walk it out.
I have had a problem with hope for a while-- I figured if I would just not hope, then I would not ever get hurt.
But God, being a God of mercy, grace and healing is showing me that true hope is found in Him.
When I realized that God really does love me, all sorts of healing started in my heart. Now, trust and hope seem more like things I can do.. For God holds my heart in His hand and when I place my hope in Him, I will not be let down. Yes, it may not always look like what I wanted, but it will Always be perfect. He will always lead me if I will but listen and follow.
Oh He is just so good.
I have been reading 1 John, and it is blowing my mind. I realize how I have never truly understood what Love really is. And I have the best teacher in the Whole World ('cause He made it!).
Every day is a new adventure!

My how time goes by and how coffee is wonderful

Here I am again! Hello all!
It is once again Sabbath which means it is Sunday and that it is my day of rest. I have only the 4-6 set on my schedule.
It has been a low-key days so far, with lots of sleeping being done and some laundry tossed in just to spice everything up. My roommates and I are probably going to get a Christmas tree at some point... Aly who is from Texas cannot wait for there to be snow, since she has not lived in snow for some years. Ty (Tyesha), Martha and are also getting excited... but my, I don't think I have ever seen anyone who loves Christmas as much as Aly does. It is quite beautiful.
Anyway, I'm a little bit more than random today, but that could be because I have not yet had my coffee, and I have a whole pot of Awesome homemade chai tea in the fridge.
I am still waiting on direction, but it is looking more and more likely every day that I will be heading back to IHOP and Fire In The Night in January for track 2.  Oh goodness... you should all got to IHOP.org and watch the Prayer Room from 4 to 7.... because from 6 to 7 we had crazy anointed worship and it was just beautiful... I mean the Nightwatch stayed for an extra hour or two because we could just not leave!
God is teaching me every day that His leadership is perfect and how to lean into Him for everything. I never realized how I have lived my life as if I could do it all with just a little help from God every now and again... but really I can do nothing without God. And it is a wonderful thing. I have so much more peace and hope knowing that I don't have to be "self-made" in fact, it is God doing everything! I just keep stumbling across these amazing Psalms that just strike to the core of my being... and God is just so good.
I'll not lie, there have been seriously hard Hard days where all I want to do is go home and not deal with my life... but God has been there. He has used every hard bad day to draw me closer into His heart and to make me more and more like Jesus Christ.
I am so thankful for this time in my life. God has surrounded me with wonderful roommates who really are a blessing from God, and awesome leaders who understand where I am and encourage me to dive deeper and deeper in God. AHHH I love you God! You are so Good!
It is crazy to think that I have three weeks left.... Time has gone my so fast, yet it feels like I have been here for Years! I'm so Excited to see all of you wonderful awesome loved people when I come home for Christmas!
LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!
<3

why hello early

Hello! it is very early for me.... it is 3 pm and I only dragged myself out of bed for breakfast and came here to give you an update... and then back to bed... Since it is the day after Thanksgiving they moved classes from 6 to 9pm so we could all do some more sleeping/actually doing something.
It's funny, I got out of the Prayer Room last night and realized that exactly a year ago I was already at work at Kohl's... and now a year later, I am praying and spending time with God as my main occupation. Which I have to say is Awesome and beats out working at Kohl's (or anywhere).
Every day is a new adventure in growing... yesterday I was struck by the Beatitudes (Matt. 5-7, Luke 6-7) and it was rather crazy. I've read a lot of book and heard many sermons about living your life out in this way, but man, last night God hit it home in my heart. And all I can pray is that God will pour out His grace upon my life so that I conform my life to His direction! It seems like a hard thing, but I'm excited...
God is good. Every "day" for me is a blessing and a promise.... When I get overwhelmed and start to forget that God is good and He is working, I go outside and I see the stars. Like the song-- When I look at the stars I see someone else, when I look at the stars I feel like myself---- (good ol'switchfoot)
They are burning constant reminders and God is with me and He really does care. He has His hand upon my life, and Hears my every whisper and cry. It is crazy to realize that God really DOES ALL the things He says He will. We are so used to walking through life and not taking people's words "to the bank" we never really take them to be 100% serious about backing up what they say.
But then you have God. And He means Every Single Word He has said. He assures us to take every word to the bank and back again. He is the God who is Unchanging and Awesome. Not only is He so great and Holy, but He does not stand back and not get involved in our lives for fear of getting dirty.
No, our God is a God who stoops down to make us great (psalm 18) and one who listens for our every cry. He is loving. He is caring. He is just. He is all-powerful. He is gentle. He is so much more than I can really understand. He is the God worth living for.
And I love you all. So very much. can you tell I  have not had my coffee yet?
Oh well, love to you all. I pray that you may take God at His word a little bit more today and that you will be "Carefree in the Care of God" --Matt.6 something in the Message
LOOOOOOOOOVE!

update! ...and coffee...

HEY! So I've been really busy and have not had a chance to update ya'll! (as my wonderful room mate would say...)
Right now I'm in-between lunch and class and then off to the Prayer room from Midnight to 6!
God is really awesome! He has been teaching me many lessons, not all of them very fun. The biggest thing that He is teaching me right now is who I am in Him. I realize that I have gone through much of my life pretending to be someone I am not. God is slowly showing me who I really am, and how to be that person (the one that He made, not the illusion I created) around other people.
Also, I will be coming home for Christmas, but as still unsure what will happen after that. God and I are still talking about if I am doing Track 2 or not. I believe I will find that out in the next week or so...
YeAh! So I love you all very much. And I'm praying for you. Know that I love you even though I am not there with you right now, and I'm excited to hear what God has been doing in your life!
Pray that God will make He will known in my life!
LOVE LOVE LOVE!

I"M AN AUNT!!!

So............. I'm an AUNT! TWICE! Betsy had here little baby boys! AHHHHHHH and as you can probably tell I'm a little JazZed! God is just So Good! Since I'm on Night Watch it was a little hard getting the info to be, but I flipped out when I found out! I was lay on my floor just trying to wrap my mind around that fact that Betsy and Matt are now Mommies and Daddies! Kinda crazy, but so Awesome!!!!! And Yes, I am going to be an Awesome Aunt. Not quite sure How yet, but I'm going to be!!!!
Oh God is sooooooo good! I just cannot get over that fact! I seems like every day God is showing me that Yes, He can be better than the day before! Oh it's just so happy! He is never the same twice and OH how He blessed my heart!
Love to you All!

Coffee and Love

I just want to say straight up--
GOD IS SO GOOD. And it's Crazy.
I have been at IHOP for about a month now, and God has made every day count. Every day when I draw near to Him, He is faithful to shine the light of His face on me.
He has shown me so many thing that I either never knew, or did not have the guts to believe. Like how He loves me, and not only that-- but He LIKES me.
Last night I had such a revelation of His love for me. Don't get me wrong, I have always 'known' that God loves me, but last night my heart believed if for the first time. The weight of the world that I have been caring around for the last 19+ years, has fallen off. I feel like Christian in Pilgrims Progress-- my weight fell of and rolled away. So many times over the years God tried to help me with my burdens, but I would never full let Him, sure I would let Him hold them for a moment or two, but never GIVE it to Him. And last night, His love overcame my heart, and I knew that He was trustworthy, so I gave them to Him. I am free. Every day I have to remember that He is my all. He is the one who gives me the strength to do anything.
And it's crazy. HE IS SO GOOD. I encourage you to lean upon God with all that you are. No matter how scary it seems to let Him in to the deepest (and most painful) parts of your heart, but you will never regret it. Never.
Today God wants to encounter you with His love. Not only so that you will Know it, but that your Heart will feel it and know it as sure as your next heartbeat.
On the practical side, I love IHOP, but am not sure that I am called to do the second track in Fire In The Night. (Which means that I would be done when I come home for Christmas)
Also, I really want to go to the Onething conference this year-- and it would be super fun to get a whole bunch of people to go... so you should be thinking... and you should come.
I miss all of my Lovely people-- you, my friends and family... but when I miss you I pray for you. So you all get a lot of prayer. But let me know how I can be praying for people!
I spent about six hours a night in the prayer room, and guess what I do-- Pray! That's right! :D
Oh I love you all so much. Know that right now my heart is leaping for joy and I am giving you huge mental hugs!
Love you all with all that I am!

Coffee shops and Grilled Cheese...

So It has been a long time and many miles of the heart since I have last written... but at the end of this day and every day-- God is Good. So Good that it blows my mind apart!
The biggest awesome update is this--GOD HEALED ME!!!! I can eat like a normal person again!
For four or five years I have not been able to eat wheat or dairy, at first I could cheat a bit and not suffer reaction that were too bad, but lately I started getting really sick if I had even a little bit of my wonderful forbidden food... to the point that I actually gave up pizza for goood. (if you did not know, that is a HUGE thing, pizza was the one thing that I would NOT give up)
But on the second to last night of the Awakening, they prayed for the healing of stomachs and I prayed. I did not feel any different... but on the last night of the Awakening I really came before God and wanted to be healed. Not that it was a big deal to me, my faith was not on the line or anything, but I started to want ALL that God wants for my life. Even the little things.
I started to think I was healed, but was reluctant to try it out... so I did not tell anyone other than my roommates for about a week, but it has been about two now! And I'm Fine!!! For the first time in a long time I can not think about what I eat, I don't have to turn down anything that anyone offers anymore...
GOD is soo good.
This was something that meant a lot to me, a reassurance that God wants the best for me, and even cares about what I can and cannot eat.
God is good.
I love you all.
I will write more!

Here I am... In a coffee shop

Hello my Loves!
And as my title implies I am sitting in a coffee shop! Time has flown, today I have been at IHOP for a week. Seems like no time at all and a life time all in the same moment. God has done so many crazy things to my heart-- all good I assure you.  I started three of the classes I'm taking-- The life of David, Excellencies of Christ, Prophetic history and I have started reading the book "Pure Heart" for another class (which I'm Reallllllly excited about the book is AmAAAzing!)
Well I have a bit of free time before the first class so my wonderful roomies and I are going to make a run to the ol'wal-of-mart and pick up everything we need for life and godliness...
I'm in kinda of a crazy mood because I'm up, awake and I have had NO COFFEE. which should be a crime.... anyway. I wanted to update you all... even though I really have not done much, but still...
I think I'm going to go and see if I got any mail!!!!!! (just so you know mail is one of the happiest thing is life... *hint* *hint*)
Well I love you so much and even though I am far away from you I think about you and when you cross my heart I stop and pray for you. I hope you feel my love,
LOVE!

Chillin with Coffee....

So it is almost 2:30 here and I'm sitting outside of the bookstore waiting for breakfast, yup, that's right. Breakfast. Since I stay up till 6am, I get up at about 2pm and have my whole day while other people are getting ready for bed.
I don't have a ton of time up wanted to just let you all know that I'm doing well and I just LOVE it here.
God is so good. He has been doing amazing things even though I have only been here for about 4 days....
I went to the Awakening service last night and God moved in my heart in a big way, then when I spent my six hours in the prayer room God really touched me again.... Let's just say I was crying alot, and that my eyes started hurting because of all the salt passing out of them. I'm so excited! We get to buy our books today and I believe start classes next week!
I just love my room/apartment mates! They are so on fire for God and are not weirded out by anything!
ahhh, well I see the line starting to form for breakfast!
LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!

First day

Hey I don't have Internet at my apartment right now so it's a bit hard to post my new stuff... but I have written so I may be updating for several days at once! LOVE!

9/30/10

Well, my first day is done and I should be sleep right now. This is technically my “night” I will (when I get fully into the schedule) be praying till 6am and sleeping till 2-2:30 when I get up and have “breakfast.”

·      That leads me to the very interesting topic of my eating habits—I cannot eat wheat or dairy… thus cafeteria food is a little difficult. I talked with my team leader last night and she recommended that I get reimbursed and just make my own food, which is what I will be doing.

·      I’m living with three really awesome girls! Martha, Ali, and T (because I cannot spell her real name, but it’s awesome!)

·      And today we are going to make a Wal-Mart run to pick up this for the apartment like toilet paper and soap and such wonderful things.

·      I really like Fire In The Night so far, and I know it’s just going to get better.

·      We have not had any full-blown classes yet, but I’m pretty excited! The welcome seasons that we have had have been really good. Also we had ministry time where anyone could come up and pray for the track one people. It was a really sweet time, four people prayed for me and I was doing my impersonation of a leaking sink and cried almost the whole time.

·      That’s all for now, I’ll write again soon. I love you all! God bless you my Lovelies!Well, my first day is done and I should be sleep right now. This is technically my “night” I will (when I get fully into the schedule) be praying till 6am and sleeping till 2-2:30 when I get up and have “breakfast.”

• That leads me to the very interesting topic of my eating habits—I cannot eat wheat or dairy… thus cafeteria food is a little difficult. I talked with my team leader last night and she recommended that I get reimbursed and just make my own food, which is what I will be doing.

• I’m living with three really awesome girls! Martha, Ali, and T (because I cannot spell her real name, but it’s awesome!)

• And today we are going to make a Wal-Mart run to pick up this for the apartment like toilet paper and soap and such wonderful things.

• I really like Fire In The Night so far, and I know it’s just going to get better.

• We have not had any full-blown classes yet, but I’m pretty excited! The welcome seasons that we have had have been really good. Also we had ministry time where anyone could come up and pray for the track one people. It was a really sweet time, four people prayed for me and I was doing my impersonation of a leaking sink and cried almost the whole time.

• That’s all for now, I’ll write again soon. I love you all! God bless you my Lovelies! 

Expectation

It is a funny feeling to be in your room and see everything you are used to seeing around--in a duffel bag on the floor. Tomorrow I leave and start the journey to Kansas City. I feel like this is not really happening, like I'm still five: packing my little suitcase to "move" downstairs. Slowly it is dawning on me that I'm not bound by anything really, I'm an "adult." Weird thought. I'm excited to start this new life, but at the same time I have trouble realizing that tomorrow and the next day I won't be waking up here in Muncie. I'll be in a whole different state, doing things I don't normally do. My "Normal" will change, and when the internship is over, my "Normal" will change again. Funny how life works. But it's nice to know that God won't ever change. I know that is such a "typical" Christian thing to say, but really. I'm not worried about the people that I am leaving here for a short while, because I know that God is looking after them. I'm a bit nervous about meeting new people and trying things I have not done before, but I know that God is with me and my goodness! I'm going to a place where people have dedicated themselves to God!
So here I go. I don't mean to be dramatic or anything like that. it's just that feelings and thoughts have always come easier onto paper then spoken aloud.
Oh my, I love you all. My lovely people!

House Full of Lutherans

Nothing against Lutherans, but well... they are in my house... well, it's really their house. Okay, for those of you who don't know-- I live in a Lutheran Campus house and they are having their monthly meeting today... in the living room....... and there would really be no problem, but you see I'm taking all of my extra stuff home today. And well, it's it all over the kitchen and the living room... and my purse is in the room they are meeting with... SO YeAh... I thought I would come and post here in the meantime! (I'm sure you are thinking "oh my, I know she said she will post alot, but really? this much? and she does not even have anything interesting to say about God...)
SOOOooooo if that is the case.  God is good. and He loves you. There those are profound ideas that I'm sure you don't entirely grasp (my goodness, I don't!).
And now I will try and quietly make my breakfast and smuggle my junk out to my car.
I leave in like four days. And it's kinda weird.
But very happy.
Love you!

Getting ready for a change....

To start my blog at the beginning...
In about five days I'm going to be all packed, drive to Kansas City, MO, and start my internship with Fire In The Night.  It has all come down at the eleventh hour-- I applied to the program about a month ago and waited to hear back... and waited... and emailed to see if they were having any problems... and waited...
Eight days before the program started I was sure that I would never hear back from them... that I had not hear the voice of God clearly, but imposed my own wishes... I was sent home from work, so I though and finely came to the conclusion that it was totally beyond my control.  God was either going to open this door, or he was going to open a different one. And just at the point when I was resigned to staying in Muncie and finding out what God really wanted me to do.... I got an email. I got into Fire In The Night.
After the shock wore off, I realized that I had eight days to get everything done... And thus I have been running around like a crazy person...
But anyway, I wanted to start this blog to that I could let all you, my lovely people, know what I was up to! I'm not going to be on facebook much at all, but will post here muchly!
I'm not sure what all my life is going to look like for the next 3 to 6 months, but here is what I do know:
I will be taking classes to learn more about God and how to grow closer to Him, and I will be praying in the prayer room from 12 to 6am-- actively taking back the night for God.
Well, I must cut my blogging short, for I have about a million things to get done before I'll be ready to jump in the car and head to Kansas City.
I love you all.
God's blessing on you Greatly.