In the coffee shop

Well here I am again, sitting in Higher Grounds and thinking of the time lift here at IHOP. About a week from now I will be on my way home, and then back again for Track 2!

It's so crazy when things start to come to an end... today I had my last E-12 group, which was my first last class, and then another last class tonight in Excellencies of Christ. It's so weird, the feeling is like that one when you realized that you are done with High School or you are done with another year of college, that feeling of "Where did all the time go?" and just think.... six months from NOW, I will be almost 20 years old. Time is just such a crazy thing.... I'm glad we have it for as the saying goes, "it keeps everything for happening at once," but I feel like the older I am getting the less and less time there is between things happening.

I mean, wow, I've been out of school for almost two years, most of my friend are in college, my sister has kids and WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE? It seems like yesterday I was still playing in the woods, getting ready with my friends for prom, graduation, moving out, getting my first job on my own, driving here, three months, and total change in my life... and who knows what next?
I feel like I'm going to blink one day and I will have kids with kids and it's just CRAzY!

I've have been realizing how short life is, and that life really is just a vapor, just a moment on the grand view of everything. But He cares how we spend it.... and He is here with each one of us right now. He cares about every little thing in our lives. That just blows my mind away... He is so big and we are so small, yet He counts us worthy of love and time. He is just so awesome. These seem like just normal things, but man, when you stop to really think about it-- my mind cannot ever wrap itself around such a "normal" thing...

Oh my goodness, God is so good. I'm so glad He is here with me, holding my hand, never to leave me. I'm just so thankful, I've spent many years trying to be all that I need. I remember how scary life is when you are looking to yourself to fill all your needs and take care of you. God has been working on me as I have been here, that He really don't have it all under control and if I just follow His lead, He will take care of me. And His care is So much better. There is such freedom in not being "in control," not that I'm perfect of anything. There are still many times throughout the day when I want to take the lead, but He is faithful to always pull be back to Himself, and pick me up after I fall...


Thank you so much God! For loving me and being so faithful to us All!
I'm looking forward to seeing you all so SOON!!! Know that I am praying for you!
God bless you all!
LOVE!!!