When the sun shines and the day is called today...

Today is beautiful and only part of that is because it is sunny and warm out... Last night I was having a hard time focusing in the prayer room... I kept thinking about all the things I don't know and don't have control over. But that is not where the story gets exciting... the story picks up when I sat before God and decided to delight myself in Him and commit to trust Him even when it is hard... and He did such beautiful things in my life and heart. The foremost of that being that I remember who I am.

It is so easy in this life to forget who you are deep down--I had found myself uncomfortable in my own skin, trying to be like everyone else. Trying to make even my walk with God be like "everyone else" but God reminded me that I am Me. That He created me well, to be how only I can be. To love Him like only I can, to talk and relate to Him like only I can--this may just sound like gibberish, but it has set me free in a totally new way--for the first time I have understood in my heart that it is okay and good to be exactly who I am. Just the very fact that I don't have to "measure up"to anyone, and only have to be who I am... that is just so freeing. And I am feeling that freedom today like I have not, I'm not sure ever. 

I am so happy being me... I can have my own sense of style, no matter how odd, my relationship with God does not look like anyone else's but it is just right for me. And that is beautiful.

I am so free in His love. He is so beautiful, and He created each of us just the way He wanted us--He did not make me thinking that I would have to do some work and conform myself into someone else to make Him happy, no, He loves Me. Crazy. And Awesome.

And yeah. I am talking the most of my last two weeks in Fire In The Night. I value the time I have left and am filled with excitement and unknown possibilities... and He is good. Really, when I look at God and know who He is, there is where I find freedom. When I fix my eyes on Him and trust Him to take care of me--that is the place this freedom I found dwells. I feel free because I got just a little bit of heart knowledge of Who this God is that loves me. That He does care. He will provide and lead me perfectly. My God is a good God and He loves me. So I can be me. And that is beautiful, because He is beautiful!

I love you all. I am looking forward to having free time to see ya'll and catch up. God bless you, I pray that you find Him in a new way today. Love.