yup

yup. so today has been good, but it is always sad when you get up to enjoy the little sunlight that one on nightwatch sees... and it is like rainy and cold... but yeah. That is all I'm going to say, but I have lovely wonderful coffee at one of my leader's house when we met for small group today!

And God is teaching me patience... and it is... well, it is like any other time that patience is required. All the interns have started counting down the days and marveling how time could have passed so fast. I'm that person who walks by and is like "SHHhhhh, don't talk about that!" I don't know where I stand on the issue of time. As one could probably figure considering most of my posts have to do with time and how fast it goes by...
I realize how short time is, so I am trying to get the very most learning that I can while I'm here, but at the same time I am restless to find out what the next step in life is. So it is an interesting tension that I'm living with these days... I've been looking up the MAC internship (Muncie Alliance Church) 'cause I've always thought it would be awesome to learn more about coffee, and I would have more 'legit' training in a recognized organization. (aka a piece of paper that tells people why they should listen to me)

I love the coffee and Bible aspect of the internship-- although in my heart I'm not feeling that "YES, THIS IS IT!" --not saying it won't come or is not the place to go, but it is not like the huge sign in the window that says "NOW" heehehee... sorry, I think only Kaitlyn will really get that.. and yes, I would love for things to be that clear... :D
The other thing that is to consider is that it is two years--full years, four semesters and two summers.
But yeah, that is what I have been thinking about. Looking into possible next steps and constantly turning my heart back to trust fully in God and His perfect leadership. And my goodness, it is a struggle some days. But He is faithful and has always come through and quieted my heart to reminded me of His goodness and GOODNESS. you can tell I had coffee and it is lunch time!
yes, the randomness does not end with me, just level upon level! But I love it, 'cause God made me like this... <3