New things and Stuff.

I've been busy Busy with work and life-- life is the bits in between work!-- I will have worked six days this week... it is awesome. My Kohl's is starting to look more like a store! Exciting stuff. It's kinda funny because we already have people trying to come in a shop, but we have to tell them that we are not open yet... I've over heard so many associates talking with people and the people cannot seem to grasp the fact that the store is Not Open, and all the people they see are just workers....

Sometimes I question if I'm still in my right mind... those times where I catch myself singing along to Milly or Beber on the radio.... :P

Water! I'm so thankful for running water! My water got turned off by mistake for TWO DAYS. And now I have water again... so it makes me happy.

I love life and God is good.
This is my update for now!

Wind in the trees and coffee....

....are very beautiful things if life.
I love the weather! I think it has finally taken a turn for the cold and it is starting to feel like fall. Which is one of the most beautiful seasons there is.
The wind is all around making wonderful music in the trees and coffee suddenly tastes 1,000x better than awesome....

Work at Kohl's is going well, and our grand opening is getting closer...
I'm starting the search again for another job so that I can pay the bills and start saving up for life.
Also I'm in the process of setting up an Etsy store to sell my art! I'm thinking about cards with my original artwork, prints, and anything and everything else!
How great would it be to do something I love AND have a supplementary income?? Quite to my liking. I will be sure and add a link to my store when I get it up and running!

So life continues on, each day being followed by the next. Each revealing new ways and needs to trust God. and yeah. Minutes and hours drift by, it is a struggle to trust God with everything that I need to. Somehow it seems to be such a tempting offer to try and handle my problems myself.... even though I know that nothing good will come from it... so moment my moment I'm trying to lay them all down, hand it all over, and trust with my life. Not always the most fun, but I'm learning. Thank God for He great mercy and Love and PATIENCE! (goodness, I need some of that!)

Ups Downs and putting up shelves.

This is one of those blogs... the blogs where I need to think and try to process...
So much has been happening and not much has made it out of my heart and into the space beyond.

There is happy news: Nathaniel and I are engaged. God has done beautiful things in our lives individually, and together we have been able to see more of Him and run after Him harder. Together. This is such a blessing to my life, that I don't even have words to make it fully known...

it has not been an easy journey, for anyone involved.
but it is worth it.

Shelves. I have put up so many shelves it is almost crazy.
I'm working at a new Kohl's and helped put everything together. It has been a strangely insightful process that has explained to me much of how people work and how I work.
It always gives me another understanding for what PROCESS can really look like.
I'm talking process: day by day moving one foot in front of the other.
Trusting in the One leading you, not understanding all the things that you are about to do, but going in to learn. So I have been going into learn.

I can do nothing on my own. I am living in total reliance on God. I freak out if I start thinking about how many different ways I could fail in this life, today for that matter. But I know God is with me. So I will move forward according to what I hear and what I know to be true.

Each day is a new journey that can only be taken one step at a time. But with God there is hope. Where there is hope, there is the ability to have faith and walk forward.
With God I have hope.
He is leading me home.
Even if the way home is walking through the valley of Baca.
I will follow Him.

Another step forward

Ah, good music and the feeling that comes from resolve effecting movement.
For so long, I have been "skating by" in life... was looking for a job, and had not real schedule or set of responsibilities.
 But NOW, I have a job at Kohl's--which is super fun/kinda hard because we are a new store that has not even opened yet! So for the past couple days I have been putting together the store... which is really eye-opening. It is hard to imagine how work is put into getting a store up and running!--but I'm back on mornings, so when I get off from work I still have a whole day ahead of me!

how cute! I'm at the library on the internet, and a little girl came up and started talking with me about everything... like school and what I'm writing and when to far as to ask to see pictures of Nathaniel and ask about my life goals... ^_^ makes me happy.

But Yeah. Life is going pretty well. I'm learning more and more not to worry about crazy little things that don't really relate to "real life." And starting to really Want God in my life.
I always want a book to tell me like it is, to give me the step so that I can be the perfect Christian and follower of God. I'm learning that that does not work.
Being a Christian is messy, being a follower of Christ is hard, yet easy. It is having a Relationship and not following a set of rules or doctrine. I've been realizing how often I go to the Bible to seek answers to my problems so I can get on with life, but neglect to ask God about any of it.
I've started hungering deep down for Him. I know that He is the only thing in this life that has lasting meaning. And I for one want to love people the way He does, I want to Love God with all of me. I want to spend my days doing something lasting.
I want to know what it means to have Christ in me, Living and active in my life. I want to be able to ask God's opinions about things, and spend quality time with Him... not just my leftover times.

I want the world to know me my His love through me.

New Doors and New Everything.

God is doing great things. And it seems life is rushing by at a pace that I can hardly keep up with.
I'm soon to start my new job at a brand new Kohl's here in Marion. I'm looking at looking (and applying) to go to IWU for an Associates of Business degree. (this is a super cool program, where I would take one class at a time for like 24-25 months while still being able to hold down a full time job!)
I am still interviewing for another job, and had one at Clair's yesterday. It would be a fun job, even if I would have to pierce ears... :P

But the greatness of what has been happening is new doors. Having the opportunity to turn to God again and again as new things to freak out about come up. I know that He is in control, and if I will but rely upon Him and trust. Things will work out for good. I've been coming to the realization again--that even in sticky situations and rather hard times, God is working it out for good. There will come a day when I can look back and see the purpose for the pain, and say, "It was all worth it. I would do it again if I had to."

So I get up each day and set myself to trust in God. To follow after Him and do what I must. Each day is an adventure, and more often than not, I end up on the floor after a great fall. But the beautiful thing is that He is always with me. Always there, listening, waiting for my call. He is Faithful and He is good.

Another note

So... yesterday I posted, but I'm not sure any of it made sense...  I happened to be filling out applications and the like and only give it a very small part of my mind...

So --> God is good. ---> True Story.
When you Trust God ----> Life is a lot more fun and happy
Libraries are awesome.
I have two interviews, one tomorrow and one on Monday... I've very excited and have a constant something to trust God with.
It's easy to believe something when you are "safe" and secure, but it is a different story when you are throwing all your weight onto a promise with no assurances but the character of a God you have never seen ---> seems crazy, but MAN. It is cool. There is a almost ease in believing when there is No other way. I've tired to handle things on my own, but have found that it is impossibly.
So every day it is a matter of laying it all down, giving God control.
It is really cool, because even when I don't understand what is happening, I can be sure that God is with me and He has not changed. I know that He is the same yesterday, today and forever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9DMtSaHoKKA

I keep hearing these amazing songs on the radio... and it blesses me so much.
ah, so YeAh. I'm still me, that same Hannah, but now I just have a different setting and new opportunities. Since I've been out on my own again, I've been drawing and reading more.... I'm actually getting better at my drawing and drew a pretty awesome tree the other day... :D
I've been listening to "Crazy Love" and it is so good. It really makes me stop and think more about God and His goodness... and I have been reading "The Ragamuffin Gospel" which is AmAzing. So much good stuff about Grace and what it really means.
God is just so good.
I got scared when I was thinking about moving out and looking for a job and church and all... I had been at IHOP and then in that weird in-between stage living with my family, but now I see all the thing that God has been doing in my heart. I am no longer afraid, but rather cannot wait for the adventure to really start. (that includes getting a job, finding a church and getting involved at IWU campus with the prayer movement) but it is neat to see God do little things to bless me in the day, and little things to grow me closer to Him and closer to maturity.

Amazing Grace How Sweet the Sound...

God is really amazing. And His free gift of Grace is amazing... I've been thinking about grace recently and it is CRAZY. So many things I have acknowledged with my lips, but disbelieved in my heart. Like the fact that Jesus loved me enough to die for me, and that His strength really is enough to cover and wash away my weaknesses and failings.

But little by little, I am starting to realize who this Glorious Savior is. I keep seeing Him come through for me day by day-- little thing by little things.
I have recently moved out on my own again, this time to a town in northern Indiana. It has been so cool to have the opportunity to turn my problems and worries over to God again and again.
I find freedom in letting Him have control and just doing my best right now. Of course, I slip up and take my problems back to worry about, but He is always there with open hands. Waiting for me to remember Him and realize again that I can do nothing on my own. It is a joy to love this God who is always here.

Well, I'm looking for a job... yup, it is pretty exciting. I'm so glad to work again. that probably sounds  weird, but I really love to work... Oh and I'm super excited-- IWU (Indiana Wesleyan University) which is really close to be, has started a branch of the prayer movement! I cannot wait to get involved and spend my time hanging with awesome people and sitting at the feet of Jesus.
It is pretty cool too, since I am pretty far from my old church, I have started "church looking" which is neat, to see all the different parts of the body and see where I am called to be.
I have floated around so much in my life, I am looking forward to putting down some roots and really getting involved with the community and most of all the Church.
Ah, well, I will post again soon! (esp. since I now know that the library has free wifi!) God bless you all!