Ah, good music and the feeling that comes from resolve effecting movement.
For so long, I have been "skating by" in life... was looking for a job, and had not real schedule or set of responsibilities.
But NOW, I have a job at Kohl's--which is super fun/kinda hard because we are a new store that has not even opened yet! So for the past couple days I have been putting together the store... which is really eye-opening. It is hard to imagine how work is put into getting a store up and running!--but I'm back on mornings, so when I get off from work I still have a whole day ahead of me!
how cute! I'm at the library on the internet, and a little girl came up and started talking with me about everything... like school and what I'm writing and when to far as to ask to see pictures of Nathaniel and ask about my life goals... ^_^ makes me happy.
But Yeah. Life is going pretty well. I'm learning more and more not to worry about crazy little things that don't really relate to "real life." And starting to really Want God in my life.
I always want a book to tell me like it is, to give me the step so that I can be the perfect Christian and follower of God. I'm learning that that does not work.
Being a Christian is messy, being a follower of Christ is hard, yet easy. It is having a Relationship and not following a set of rules or doctrine. I've been realizing how often I go to the Bible to seek answers to my problems so I can get on with life, but neglect to ask God about any of it.
I've started hungering deep down for Him. I know that He is the only thing in this life that has lasting meaning. And I for one want to love people the way He does, I want to Love God with all of me. I want to spend my days doing something lasting.
I want to know what it means to have Christ in me, Living and active in my life. I want to be able to ask God's opinions about things, and spend quality time with Him... not just my leftover times.
I want the world to know me my His love through me.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
New Doors and New Everything.
God is doing great things. And it seems life is rushing by at a pace that I can hardly keep up with.
I'm soon to start my new job at a brand new Kohl's here in Marion. I'm looking at looking (and applying) to go to IWU for an Associates of Business degree. (this is a super cool program, where I would take one class at a time for like 24-25 months while still being able to hold down a full time job!)
I am still interviewing for another job, and had one at Clair's yesterday. It would be a fun job, even if I would have to pierce ears... :P
But the greatness of what has been happening is new doors. Having the opportunity to turn to God again and again as new things to freak out about come up. I know that He is in control, and if I will but rely upon Him and trust. Things will work out for good. I've been coming to the realization again--that even in sticky situations and rather hard times, God is working it out for good. There will come a day when I can look back and see the purpose for the pain, and say, "It was all worth it. I would do it again if I had to."
So I get up each day and set myself to trust in God. To follow after Him and do what I must. Each day is an adventure, and more often than not, I end up on the floor after a great fall. But the beautiful thing is that He is always with me. Always there, listening, waiting for my call. He is Faithful and He is good.
I'm soon to start my new job at a brand new Kohl's here in Marion. I'm looking at looking (and applying) to go to IWU for an Associates of Business degree. (this is a super cool program, where I would take one class at a time for like 24-25 months while still being able to hold down a full time job!)
I am still interviewing for another job, and had one at Clair's yesterday. It would be a fun job, even if I would have to pierce ears... :P
But the greatness of what has been happening is new doors. Having the opportunity to turn to God again and again as new things to freak out about come up. I know that He is in control, and if I will but rely upon Him and trust. Things will work out for good. I've been coming to the realization again--that even in sticky situations and rather hard times, God is working it out for good. There will come a day when I can look back and see the purpose for the pain, and say, "It was all worth it. I would do it again if I had to."
So I get up each day and set myself to trust in God. To follow after Him and do what I must. Each day is an adventure, and more often than not, I end up on the floor after a great fall. But the beautiful thing is that He is always with me. Always there, listening, waiting for my call. He is Faithful and He is good.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Another note
So... yesterday I posted, but I'm not sure any of it made sense... I happened to be filling out applications and the like and only give it a very small part of my mind...
So --> God is good. ---> True Story.
When you Trust God ----> Life is a lot more fun and happy
Libraries are awesome.
I have two interviews, one tomorrow and one on Monday... I've very excited and have a constant something to trust God with.
It's easy to believe something when you are "safe" and secure, but it is a different story when you are throwing all your weight onto a promise with no assurances but the character of a God you have never seen ---> seems crazy, but MAN. It is cool. There is a almost ease in believing when there is No other way. I've tired to handle things on my own, but have found that it is impossibly.
So every day it is a matter of laying it all down, giving God control.
It is really cool, because even when I don't understand what is happening, I can be sure that God is with me and He has not changed. I know that He is the same yesterday, today and forever.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9DMtSaHoKKA
I keep hearing these amazing songs on the radio... and it blesses me so much.
ah, so YeAh. I'm still me, that same Hannah, but now I just have a different setting and new opportunities. Since I've been out on my own again, I've been drawing and reading more.... I'm actually getting better at my drawing and drew a pretty awesome tree the other day... :D
I've been listening to "Crazy Love" and it is so good. It really makes me stop and think more about God and His goodness... and I have been reading "The Ragamuffin Gospel" which is AmAzing. So much good stuff about Grace and what it really means.
God is just so good.
I got scared when I was thinking about moving out and looking for a job and church and all... I had been at IHOP and then in that weird in-between stage living with my family, but now I see all the thing that God has been doing in my heart. I am no longer afraid, but rather cannot wait for the adventure to really start. (that includes getting a job, finding a church and getting involved at IWU campus with the prayer movement) but it is neat to see God do little things to bless me in the day, and little things to grow me closer to Him and closer to maturity.
So --> God is good. ---> True Story.
When you Trust God ----> Life is a lot more fun and happy
Libraries are awesome.
I have two interviews, one tomorrow and one on Monday... I've very excited and have a constant something to trust God with.
It's easy to believe something when you are "safe" and secure, but it is a different story when you are throwing all your weight onto a promise with no assurances but the character of a God you have never seen ---> seems crazy, but MAN. It is cool. There is a almost ease in believing when there is No other way. I've tired to handle things on my own, but have found that it is impossibly.
So every day it is a matter of laying it all down, giving God control.
It is really cool, because even when I don't understand what is happening, I can be sure that God is with me and He has not changed. I know that He is the same yesterday, today and forever.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9DMtSaHoKKA
I keep hearing these amazing songs on the radio... and it blesses me so much.
ah, so YeAh. I'm still me, that same Hannah, but now I just have a different setting and new opportunities. Since I've been out on my own again, I've been drawing and reading more.... I'm actually getting better at my drawing and drew a pretty awesome tree the other day... :D
I've been listening to "Crazy Love" and it is so good. It really makes me stop and think more about God and His goodness... and I have been reading "The Ragamuffin Gospel" which is AmAzing. So much good stuff about Grace and what it really means.
God is just so good.
I got scared when I was thinking about moving out and looking for a job and church and all... I had been at IHOP and then in that weird in-between stage living with my family, but now I see all the thing that God has been doing in my heart. I am no longer afraid, but rather cannot wait for the adventure to really start. (that includes getting a job, finding a church and getting involved at IWU campus with the prayer movement) but it is neat to see God do little things to bless me in the day, and little things to grow me closer to Him and closer to maturity.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Amazing Grace How Sweet the Sound...
God is really amazing. And His free gift of Grace is amazing... I've been thinking about grace recently and it is CRAZY. So many things I have acknowledged with my lips, but disbelieved in my heart. Like the fact that Jesus loved me enough to die for me, and that His strength really is enough to cover and wash away my weaknesses and failings.
But little by little, I am starting to realize who this Glorious Savior is. I keep seeing Him come through for me day by day-- little thing by little things.
I have recently moved out on my own again, this time to a town in northern Indiana. It has been so cool to have the opportunity to turn my problems and worries over to God again and again.
I find freedom in letting Him have control and just doing my best right now. Of course, I slip up and take my problems back to worry about, but He is always there with open hands. Waiting for me to remember Him and realize again that I can do nothing on my own. It is a joy to love this God who is always here.
Well, I'm looking for a job... yup, it is pretty exciting. I'm so glad to work again. that probably sounds weird, but I really love to work... Oh and I'm super excited-- IWU (Indiana Wesleyan University) which is really close to be, has started a branch of the prayer movement! I cannot wait to get involved and spend my time hanging with awesome people and sitting at the feet of Jesus.
It is pretty cool too, since I am pretty far from my old church, I have started "church looking" which is neat, to see all the different parts of the body and see where I am called to be.
I have floated around so much in my life, I am looking forward to putting down some roots and really getting involved with the community and most of all the Church.
Ah, well, I will post again soon! (esp. since I now know that the library has free wifi!) God bless you all!
But little by little, I am starting to realize who this Glorious Savior is. I keep seeing Him come through for me day by day-- little thing by little things.
I have recently moved out on my own again, this time to a town in northern Indiana. It has been so cool to have the opportunity to turn my problems and worries over to God again and again.
I find freedom in letting Him have control and just doing my best right now. Of course, I slip up and take my problems back to worry about, but He is always there with open hands. Waiting for me to remember Him and realize again that I can do nothing on my own. It is a joy to love this God who is always here.
Well, I'm looking for a job... yup, it is pretty exciting. I'm so glad to work again. that probably sounds weird, but I really love to work... Oh and I'm super excited-- IWU (Indiana Wesleyan University) which is really close to be, has started a branch of the prayer movement! I cannot wait to get involved and spend my time hanging with awesome people and sitting at the feet of Jesus.
It is pretty cool too, since I am pretty far from my old church, I have started "church looking" which is neat, to see all the different parts of the body and see where I am called to be.
I have floated around so much in my life, I am looking forward to putting down some roots and really getting involved with the community and most of all the Church.
Ah, well, I will post again soon! (esp. since I now know that the library has free wifi!) God bless you all!
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